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[...I've never felt this empty before...]
Jan. 24th, 2005 09:09 pmRawr. Notta lot going on here... shock, eh? Just been making icons. I'll probably make a few more and then update ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
torchedgraphics tomorrow.
NUMB3RS was pretty good. It's on again on Friday so I'll be able to get a better feel for it then.
*sigh* If I hear my mother ask one more time "What are you gonna do with your life?" one more time I'm gonna go fucking insane. What the fuck am I supposed to tell her? "Oh I know exactly what I want to do..." yeah right. I don't wanna go to college and just waste fucking time because I don't know what I want to do. Plus there is the fact the junior college here only has like 15 majors to choose from that's it. And I'm not gonna move off somewhere and spend the insane amount of money that I don't have to take classes that won't mean anything. And then there is the part of where if I do go back to classes I'll another breakdown like I had my Senior year of high school and that I had last spring. I did nothing but go to school for nearly four years straight. (sophomore year to last spring, including summer)
It already makes me extremely depressed to think about my life. I mean I have no friends, no social life, no nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'm just gonna waste away. It makes me wonder if I died tomorrow how many people would care. Hell even when I did have "friends" they didn't pay any attention to me. I mean take my 18th birthday for example. Two people I know remembered. Two. The group of girls I talk to online remembered my brithday and I've never met a single one of them.
torchedgraphics tomorrow. NUMB3RS was pretty good. It's on again on Friday so I'll be able to get a better feel for it then.
*sigh* If I hear my mother ask one more time "What are you gonna do with your life?" one more time I'm gonna go fucking insane. What the fuck am I supposed to tell her? "Oh I know exactly what I want to do..." yeah right. I don't wanna go to college and just waste fucking time because I don't know what I want to do. Plus there is the fact the junior college here only has like 15 majors to choose from that's it. And I'm not gonna move off somewhere and spend the insane amount of money that I don't have to take classes that won't mean anything. And then there is the part of where if I do go back to classes I'll another breakdown like I had my Senior year of high school and that I had last spring. I did nothing but go to school for nearly four years straight. (sophomore year to last spring, including summer)
It already makes me extremely depressed to think about my life. I mean I have no friends, no social life, no nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'm just gonna waste away. It makes me wonder if I died tomorrow how many people would care. Hell even when I did have "friends" they didn't pay any attention to me. I mean take my 18th birthday for example. Two people I know remembered. Two. The group of girls I talk to online remembered my brithday and I've never met a single one of them.
